Yesterday’s post was a bit heavy (and I know, a bit long). I decided I probably ought to follow it up with some good news…in the form of a shorter post. Luckily, God gave me a cool little epiphany moment on the way to church on Sunday. Let me let you in on it. Before you read this, if you haven’t read yesterday’s post go there first and read it then come back.
Now, it all starts with the “Big Red Truck.”
I put quotations around that because that is the truck’s name in our house. NB loves that truck. He would ride in it anywhere and everywhere if he could. When ever we go somewhere he always stands by the steps to our upper driveway and says, “Drive Big Red Tuck?” He is always a bit disappointed when the answer is no.
This Sunday, I had to go to church early to help out with the children’s program. When I told NB at breakfast that I was going in the Big Red Truck but he had to stay with Mommy and Nana (LA’s mom), his face fell. I reassured him that we would take a ride in it soon, and he cheered up.
So, I get in the truck for a 15ish minute drive to church. I have been home with NB most of the summer (I am a teacher with summers off), and so alone time driving is not something I have experienced in a while. It is amazing how easy it is to hear him speak when you are alone in quiet (the radio doesn’t work) and how he can use the smallest thing to trigger a huge lesson.
You can’t drive much higher than 45 mph on most of the roads to church. As I was riding down the road, I saw something out of the corner in of my eye through the rear view mirror. When I went to get a closer look, it was gone.
A minute or so later, there it was again. And once more, when I looked it was gone.
It happened once more, movement in the bed of the truck. This time I looked up quick enough. Leaves were moving all around the bed of the truck. I was driving just fast enough to cause a cyclone of air back there. Leaves from when we hauled some plants were caught in the cyclone. What had caught my eye was not the spinning leaves, though. I was seeing the leaves that got away.
Please allow me to drop some science on you for a second…I am a science teacher, that is my job. What was happening in the back of the truck was the space between the cab and the gate caused air to get trapped. The trapped air moves in a circle (cylcone…I like that word better). This is by design. The air cyclone moves slower than the air moving over the truck as it travels. The faster air glances off of slower air, and this increases the aerodynamics (and the gas mileage) of the truck.
So anyway, I was watching the leaves as they spun (still watching the road, too) and more leaves escape. As I was looking at this, God spoke to my heart, “That is you.”
“How?” I sliently thought.
Over the next couple of minutes, God showed me some of the sin cycles that I get caught up in. The things that I am constantly fighting against. The “snakes” that I so desperately need to clear out of my life (laziness and pride being cheif among these right now). Then he reminded me that I am powerless to do this on my own. I can’t win. I am stuck. On my own I will always be trapped, moving slowly in the cyclone of self…God’s fast moving love and grace just glances off and moves on. I have to stop trying to stop the cycle on my own. I have to let his kindness and love in.
When I do. When I invite God into my struggles, through confession, I allow him to enter in. The Spirit moves into my cyclone and this allows me to break free. Only through the power of the Spirit. Only when I invite his grace in. Only when I am honest before him. This humbles me, breaks up the cycle, and this allows me to fly away.
Check out Romans 8:1-12. I am just going to quote part of it, but read the rest on your own.
“ But you are not controlled by your sinful nature. You are controlled by the Spirit if you have the Spirit of God living in you. (And remember that those who do not have the Spirit of Christ living in them do not belong to him at all.) And Christ lives within you, so even though your body will die because of sin, the Spirit gives you life[d] because you have been made right with God. The Spirit of God, who raised Jesus from the dead, lives in you. And just as God raised Christ Jesus from the dead, he will give life to your mortal bodies by this same Spirit living within you.” Romans 8:9-11.
You can be free. You can break the cycle. Yes, we HAVE to work on getting rid of the “snakes” in our lives, but we also HAVE to know that we don’t have to do this alone. We can’t. Jesus died and was raised again. That same power that raised him from the dead will break the chains that trap us in the sin cycle. Please call out to him! Please turn to God with whatever has you trapped. Trust him. He will help you break free.
A side note, tonight I was driving in the Big Red Truck tonight and going to church for a meeting. On the way there and back, I kept seeing less and less leaves as more and more broke loose and got away. There is hope! God can break our sin cycles and free us from them one by one!
Did this speak to you? Have you found freedom from sin cyclones by inviting God into your stuggle? Tell me about it You don’t have to get details…just talk about your freedom!